And every day that passes by,
I wonder how they all survive,
In a world so dark and cruel,
It’s almost torture to be alive,

It is because what’s in my head,
I tend to make things bigger then,
What they are really in their size,
It’s my condition, it is no lie,

I have shaped my little world,
just to make sure no-one will hurt,
my feelings and my inner voice,
‘cause when he reigns, I have no choice.

(Chorus)
I’m in control of what I see, it’s perfect now I won’t break free,
It’s systematically designed, so I can take on the world outside,
As I walk the earth I’m in the shade, I’m hiding away, ‘cause I can’t take
Reality that is there outside, too much signals, too much fright.
I won’t conform to your lifestyle, it seems to heavy to be worthwhile,
That’s why I live here all alone, living life like a Chameleon.

In my early days, it all was clear,
I developed phobia’s and fears,
For things I saw I couldn’t explain,
that other people saw as plain.

My parents tried to help me out,
But they couldn’t help me fight those rounds,
never was accepted by other kid’s,
Adults thought that I made up all those things.

(Chorus)
(Solo)
(Chorus)

Wake up little one,
This is your wake-up call
Don’t be afraid
Welcome to the world,

Look around you now,
Tell me, what do you see,
The world that you once lived in,
Was too small to be free.

I Will help you out,
To change the world around you,
Your virgin eyes will see,
A dosage of reality.

I Don’t, feel comfortable,
In this world, it seems so grey,

Signals from, the outside,
I wish inside, I had stayed

(Pre-chorus)
This is where I must belong,
This is my own world which I control,
Yet it feels like something went real wrong,
From the moment I left the old feeling’s gone.

What strange emotion, fills my heart,
My old home doesn’t, feel the same,

It seems so, dark and bleak,
Compared to what, it felt like in older days.

(Pre-chorus)

(Chorus)
I’m going home, back inside,
But I don’t know, why it does not seem right,
Home, where I reside,
Is this what growing up means,
I wish I could go back and hide…

Rushing through a life lived mostly with no one by your side,
Too bad that when you grow older the loneliness won’t hide.
The emptiness within these walls is felt all the time,
You should have asked her to join you, when the moment was right.

I guess I did not know then…how important she was to me…
I never understood, how you could share your life and still be free…
I was afraid back then… to open up myself…
I took the easy way…and now I live in mental Hell…

(Chorus)

I oversee a shaded room,
Windows blinded, stale air too
I’ve lived in here as a child,
But as I see it now, it seems so wild,

Many years in here I’ve spent,
My safe haven, to my content,
Parental love was all around,
Love and warmth I always found,

(Chorus)
Past memories, you have my regrets,
Cause when I grew up, the sadness struck intense,
I had no clue, of what grew inside,
I could not explain, why it was I cried.

And there I see, a special thing,
Your eyes so pure and shining,
Your pretty hair into the wind,
The smile on your face from your heart within,

You were there when I cried,
Always there right by my side,
Gave me hope when all seemed lost,
Cheered me up at whatever cost.

(Chorus)
Little girl, you have my heart,
Cause when I grew up, you always did your part,
By showing me the beauty and the light side of it all,
You made me feel real special, I shouldn’t have let you fall.

(Guitar Solo Piece)

(Chorus)
My Angel, I’ve never told you what,
I felt for you, because I couldn’t part with
This feeling inside, that blocked my sense of love,
I cannot share myself, something I can’t stand above.

I wait, for the storm to come,
And take my mind away,
Witnessing a new construction,
A mind in harm’s way,

Hark and Heed, the angel’s Sing
The path is growing dark, death is whispering,
Too large to grasp, with a normal state of mind,
Numbness seems inevident, turning blind,

(Chorus)
White wings, Halo’s, they seem too close,
Too much, To hold, don’t know how it will unfold,

Hold me down now.
Push the brakes Down.
It all moves too fast.

(Chorus)

This day, just passes by,
But not like any other day.
Don’t know if I should cry,
Or why to be happy anyway

(Pre-Chorus)
I’m playing the part,
Of a relative crying,
Yet it all seems,
Painstakingly in vain,

This man was alone,
For a lot of years that passed,
He did not have any visitors,
And now I am his last,

(Pre-Chorus)
I’m playing the part,
Of a caring soul next to him,
Yet it all seems,
So empty and so cold,

(Chorus)
How could this man have lived like this ?
Why would no-one care to look at this ?
Pretending that he deserves a good end.
Inside I’m cold, I can’t withstand.

(Solo)

Water runs from the sky,
Like compensative cries,
This man goes off alone
I hope he’s going home

(Pre-Chorus)
I have played the part,
Of a caring soul next to him,
Today I realized,
Death is a charade

(Chorus)
How can society have allowed this ?
Why would no-one care to look at this ?
This man was left alone and empty.
No-one cared, Evidently

Now I feel guilty for my past,
Cause I was no better, I’ve seen at last
I’ve wasted friendships, wasted love,
I see it now, I will regain my old trust

Wake up, friend of mine,
You did not sleep too well, or did you ?
Take one step at the time
Relax, no-one will come to get you,

Lay your head to rest,
Find comfort in these words,
Living life is a tough game.
That is why it hurts.

(Chorus)
I may not be around you,
In this world of grey,
But within your mind, I’ll live forever,
I will stay

I have suffered much,
When I was very Ill,
And I know that it isn’t perfect,
But this was my final will.

I’ll be leaving this world,
Something you cannot fight,
I always thought of you,
Keep that in your mind,

(Chorus)
I’ll be going now,
To rest my final rest,
I’ll be leaving now,
My time has come to pass,

Don’t do foolish things, Keep yourself together,
I wanted you to be happy, Through the darkest of weathers.
The promise that we made, will always survive,
I’ll wait for you at heaven’s gates, as long as your alive,

Rising up inside… No more time to hide… You are mine !!

Part 1 : Personal Powertrip
(3.2 : The wires Broke)

Unfair, it is all unfair, I’ve tried to better myself, but this world gave me hell.
If you all turn against me, that is fine with me,
I will fight back this time, to break your heart as you broke mine !

I am so powerful, right now I control you,
I’ll eat you inside out, I’ll fester as I break through,

Within your world, the silence first reigned, but now you seem to loose,
Control of everything, you once have owned, and hopelessness now grows,
And now you understand, how to do it right, it all slips through your hands,
Stigmatic suicide, you are too late, the world has left you behind.

I don’t want to see, the future that I have in mind,
I will take responsibility for the monster that I have created and all it has destroyed.

Part 2 : Raging eyes in a state of Confusion
(3.3 : Acting on instinct)

(Instrumental)

Part 3 : Realization
(3.4 : I oversee the chaos…)

And then all was silent,
And as my sight regained,
I saw myself lying,
Alone and enstranged,

The TV was on,
and I heard what it said,
about someone killing,
all that he ever had,

Then a shock came to myself,
As the name came up to see,
This was reality,
The man they mentioned was me,

All that I see is a ruin of what once was,
Now I have learned, that you can’t turn the clock back,
Yes, I know now, what I must do to set it right,
I just have to go and leave it all behind

I will leave today, I will travel and find my way,
The path will be long, this time I won’t go wrong,

I’ve survived my haunts, as I look back I smile,
I’ll never forget it, in the end It’s all worthwhile…

Part 4 : Atonement
(3.5 : …and I now see what must be done)

(Instrumental)